a lesson in loneliness
What is it with the lonely days that just put all of my feelings and sadness that stays under the surface and throws them under a magnifying glass? It's almost funny to think of all the things I have going for me, how GOOD I have it compared to many people in this world, and yet I still manage to feel down.

I guess I have a social interaction quota ingrained in my subconscious, a quota that spirals my thoughts out of control when left un-reached. The last few days have left me really missing friends, especially one person in particular. I just don't know what my deal is.

Then of course, there is always "The situation"..yeah, the one thing in my life that I wish I could change but just can't. The dynamic I want to break. The chance I want to take but cannot seem to convince myself there is any hope...yeah. Vague, eh?

I guess I just pray to God that he will help me concentrate on my blessings and all of the things going well for me in my life. You know, something that is going "bad" in my small, limited perspective really is probably exactly the way God intends it; my impatient mind and imperfect view of things just skews everything. I pray for better understanding and the ability to let go of painful, meaningless thoughts and just live.

I have a big gig coming up as a part of Midwest Music Summit 2006. I am really excited and hopeful for the opportunities this may lead to. Many record executives attend MMS and it is likely someone important might be watching...

The show is free and open to the public as well! I really hope to see anyone there that can make it.

See? Venting is good for everyone, even for us musicians to people we have never met :).

Take care...enjoy the warm months, and don't let the small stuff get you down.

-Steve